14. Some More Patience

Brian used to leave his coffee cup on the counter every morning. He would rinse it out and place it right above the dishwasher but never put it in. Just right on top!

As our relationship began to deteriorate this one act irritated me so much and we would occasionally argue about it, and to me, it felt like he was doing it on purpose. Every day.

Bret used to leave his coffee spoon every morning somewhere in the house… on the counter, on the coffee table, random places. This drove me crazy and I told him every single time, and I know he was just doing it randomly and didn’t give it a thought. Ian and I even had a special look we gave each other. If Bret wasn’t in the house I would go on a rant about all the ways I was going to kil him with that spoon.

But now both of these men are dead… and I would give anything to find Brian‘s coffee cup or find Bret’s spoon and still have them here on this earth alive with me and Ian.

Every morning Ian takes a shower and leaves the shower door open wide and every day I just quietly close it.

One, because I am trying to find a little patience in my life and myself and two, because he’s the most important thing in my life and it proves he still here. And when that is all I have to keep me here - that is everything.